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Dear Diary……

Today I knew what the word goddess really represents, cause I felt like one.

The man of my dreams is laying asleep in my bed. I try not to wake him up by my anxiety to write.

We had a great time today. As always I do, with my boo. The battery to the mp3 player died before I had even reached the first station. Ain’t that a bia. So there weren’t much to do but stare out the window or on occation check out someone’s clothes.

I noticed I had left my lip balm at home in all the rush so the first thing I did ones reached my destination was find any store open at that time that could have these essentials.

Dialed the number with a bit of a stress & concern that he still wouldn’t be there as he promised. He was runnin 10 minutes late so I head to the subway in slow pace and took a detour before I ended up outside 7/11 as agreed venue. (God, I love fancy words). Didn’t have to wait long untill he pulled over with his car.

Oki done with the story telling version! lol, became a pain. =| . At least I gave it a shot.

Went ta Heron, shopped grocery to bring home in wait for the movie to begin rolling. (Had to be there 40 mins early to pay for the tickets.) Saw 2 was kind of nice actually. I expected it to be so much worse, the trailer didn’t even seem all that nice. I liked it =D. But I bet if they make a third it will be wack because the guy died and a girl has took over his work.

Mami got some sugar tonight! Oh yeah, LOL. Anyone who know me knows that ain’t something that can be expected to hear from me. I act like a nun =).

Boo brought the digital camera so now I can take some pictures =), yay.

I feel happy, finding myself smiling.

It feels good with my boo. Like I’m experiencing the better part of life. There are not often misunderstandings between us two. We just really enjoy eachothers company and have fun. His trust in me have gave me the possibility to trust him. A shared devotion has united us in a remarkable way. There isn’t really any jealousy from any sides because we both know how serious the other is about this relationship so none would do it wrong, that is precious to Know.

I was thinking yesterday though about jealousy and ish because of an article in a mag where ladies shared theri stories, That guys are really superficial, if they cheat. Isn’t it disgusting.

My ex relationship was very destructive and jealous. But that is a story that makes me sad because I didn’t do anything for him to feel that way.. it ws all in him. Don’t really wish to think more bout it.

I’m going back to my beloved =)
Catch me in my sleep. Hokus Pokus *Poff*

1 comment February 19, 2006

Send me to solitary where I without distraction can gain deeper understanding.

Your night dreams are results from your day life. Dreams sorts the advents of the day out so that we can take in the content of the next day. This is not hokus pokus, just merly nature’s way. Our body’s way to keep us sain.

Maybe the hours of sleep necissary for an induvidual, is connected to our dreams?

XoftSpy lived up to my expectations with satisfying results. The system is running smooth and I can safely work on any project without fear that the computer could crash any moment. It completely erased evey damn computer virus (about 37). The program requiers payed SN but a Google search fixes that.

Jealousy. A little touch of jealousy is cute and makes me feel safe and wanted but extreme jealousy can destroy any relationship. If the peson your with can’t be trusted there shouldn’t be a relationship. And if your partner can’t be trusted he or she is just not that into you. I wouldn’t want a half ass relationship, I perfer a devotion from both sides. I know, feelings are hard to fight but rather seperate now then follow it down to the bottom like the captain of a boat. ~ Do I live as I preach? Since I begun understanding this and think like this yes I do. I speak what I understand/Realize, and my words come from my life. Although this is not preaching but simply expressing my thoughts thereby the blog.

I have come to the conclusion that children that giggle easy are not as bright as others. I saw a program on Animal planet that gave me this insight. A keeper held two young chimpances in his arms and spoke of the different personalities of the young female and young male. Let’s call them Amy and Charlie. Charlie laughed and ran crazy everytime the slightest hint came from the keeper that he wanted to play with him. Amy was not as amused by the same thing twice and wanted to see/learn new things.

Was you Charlie or Amy?

I believe the meaning of feminism has lost what it is all about. The extreme fighters that call them selfs feminists and believe they fight for a better cause that acts loud and obnoxious, you know those that fight for things that make no sense with anger and who aren’t acting rational, can be compared to those who fights in name of The Lord but uses violence and hurt/kill people. The origin of the meaning feminism is all about equality, right? Recently I learned that they are fighting for a “woman” instead of a man on the sign for pedestrian’s road crossings. I laughed when I heard it. If they would act a bit rational they’d ask for a sign of no man or woman instead =D. I feel I do not know enough about feminisn to continue more about it.

On another subject, somewhat related.

Women’s soccer(football) and men’s soccer(football); The structure of which woman and man are built on are so different from eachother. I am not taking sides with the men when speaking this, I am simply seeing it how it is, I am being truthful and realistic. See, I don’t even like sports that much, my man is a soccer and boxing fanatic and even though sometimes I wish he wasn’t into that I believe that it makes him manly and manly i love. Women cannot compete in the big/same league as men because our body’s are not built for it. We aren’t as strong nor can we resist pain as them (tackles, falls, a kick on the leg). When a woman fall she can’t get her self up as quick as a man in the league, a woman would make the team lose. There has to be a women’s soccer and a man’s soccer. That women likes to play fotball is OK but if, Oh big if, a woman could keep it up with boys or even be better I think she should have the same opportunity to get in the team as a man would if she would want to. I don’t even think any woman is. Same as ballet being first and foremost a ladies thing, men that are good at it is allowed.

2 comments February 1, 2006

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