People that laughs at other peoples misfortune, what is there to say about them. I don’t even wish my enemies hard times, I just wish they would understand how they act and begin realize. But I guess there are not many who thinks like me.

Okay there might be one person I don’t wish well, someone from a past long ago, but I would also like her to begin understand. Her actions, and her self, then maybe she could find happiness in her life.

People with much anger and who is easy to ignite are not happy. How come some don’t realize there is something wrong in their lives if they carry anger. No we are not angry by nature. Anger is not feeling well. Weither that person acknowledges it or not. I am no Dahli Lama follower but I have simply realized anger has no point & life can be better without it.

-But some never realize, cause they are so deep in it. To realize they need to take a close look at them selfs. The imperfections in all it’s glory. It mostley is the virtious women who has a problem with this.

Some live and breath anger. Excisting in the life of anger. Feeding off anger and having anger feeding off them.

True some are so deep in it.

There are a life to experience how it feels without anger.

Yes yo life may have done you harm but don’t let that harm run your life. You say you are free but you don’t see the hold some things including anger got of you.

You are blinded. And unknowingly a fool.

How do you begin to change? These words you are gonna hate but YOU FORGIVE EVERYONE WHO HAS DONE YOU HARM. And then.. you can continue your road to happiness and what ever you might desire will come easier for you.

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To some extent I feel myself it is good to have God & his wisdom in your life. If people only knew what filles my whole body up when I pray. Every trouble dissapear, it’s like drugs.

Sometimes combining all that I know and my conclusion of it all it feels like a “mixed pearl theory”. Though it would be no point in writing a book since too many are blinded anyway & the book would cause more laughs then inspiration. And I also feel what point is there to write a whole story if people only will take parts of it into their lives anyway. It is not the same thing as experiencing the whole thing. The whole is needed to understand. I guess I can explain it like the bible, people take the words them self need & don’t even bother bout the rest.

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Nothing to do with what I wrote before the break but I do feel satisfied when I can help a person. And I don’t feel great at all when I fail to help. But everything is up to the one person. If it wants to be helped or not.

One part of me feels “the hell” with the grown people, focus on the children in need. Cause there is a better chance there. But is that right?

the older I get, the more mature I get, and realize things. I know there are many thurths out there, and one can get lost in it all and not find one self. (One need to find the world inside and not look for your self inside the world.) But I guess all can agree on what is good and not. Well, we know what is necissary in this world, and what causes pain.

I lost my train of thought. I am sleepy. It IS 4am here.. oh my lorrrrd. Lucky me I have no classes till Monday but I don’t want to turn the clock around for me. So I’ll go to sleep with thoughts.. which means it might not be so easy to fall asleep. But Ciao

Love
Me